degree finish~

for almost 3 years studyin', busy wif asments,

busy wif micro-teaching..oni juz now, is my last class..

creative writing..was the last class 4 my degree as a teacher.

~ after tis, all I have to focus is on teaching in dat school & finishing my term-paper in time..I'm so damn afraid I couldn't manage to finish it on time..time flies so fast dat we din even hav d time 2 looks back of wat we had been missing all tis years together as a student in Bachelor of Education ( Hons) Teaching English as a Second Language ( TESL). 

credit to google search..~

Where do i begin 
To tell the story 
Of how greatful love can be 
The sweet love story 
That is older than the sea 
That sings the truth about the love she brings to me 
Where do i start 

With the first hello 
She gave the meaning 
To this empty world of mine 
That never did 
Another love another time 
She came into my life 
And made a living fine 
She fills my heart 

She fills my heart 
With very special things 
With angel songs 
With wild imaginings 
She fills my soul 
With soo much love 
That anywhere i go 
Im never lonely 
With her along who could b lonely 
I reach for her hand 
Its always there 

How long does it last 
Can love be measured by the hours in a day 
I have no answers no 
But this much i can say 
I know ill need her till this love song burn away 
And she;ll b there... 
How long does it last 
Can love b measured by the hours in a day 
I have no answers no 
But this much i can say 
I know ill need her till this love song burn away 
And she'll be there... 



* i like to listen to this song. the song by Andy William. Yeah, it is an old song but I dunno why it does caught my attention..the melody & the lyrics got me stand..


For me love is subjective..we can say love to everyone but do we feel the same to each other? everyone wants to be in love coz it makes them happy & feel so peace bcoz we noe dat there is owez gonna be a person to be wif us all the way. The feeling of beating heart, smiling face, dreaming of an happy ending love story..who doesn't like love? Love...can be in any form & can be to anyone..but..dun blame dat love is blind..it us who is blind..

to be in love, we tend to forget other things dat used to be important in our life..we tend to take granted for everything. Juz for one person, we tend to neglect our best-friend or someone else who is much more important in our life..why? still love is at fault?? we spend more times with him rather than our friend..we forgot that the friend that we've left behind is the one who's gonna hug, laugh & cried wif us..no matter what..a true friend never say aword even though she was hurt..she still remain stood under that shady-tree waiting for a smile from her friend..which is so far away..she wish she could walk wif her..but then she is too fast & she is waving goodbye & dissappear juz like dat..& tis friend will still remain here..waiting..she wont go anywhere..she was afraid if she go & her friend needed her then she's not there..so she sitting there..looking into empty air..sometimes she laugh unintendedly..imaging her friend came to her..sitting wif her..& talking..a moment later she realized it is juz her dream..dream which is...nothing in the end..

sometimes, we thought we make a best decision ever..we choose the best person ever..we lived happily but then for how long till we begin to quarrel about stupid things, we begin to be irritated to him, we begin to comparing him & even worst we begin to doubting his love toward us? this all is a normal thing dat will happen somewhere, somehow..although I dun believe in true-love but I know & believe dat God holds every secrets dat lies in this world..somehow, maybe one day, I believing in dat..but for now, nothing! 


I make friends..I laugh..I smiles..but in my heart..oni He knows..~ I chase everyone who came near..I have to be like dis..I did once happy..I laugh all my heart..I forgot who am I..I forgot what has I promised to myself..I know I've done mistakes..by lying to myself..I promised to be strong & never ever slow down..never ever look-back..but I stop awhile..& I wasted my time..I know dat. 


mirror is my true reflect..its show how is my 'looks' exactly is..I can put how many inch make-up but in front of it, I cried unintended..coz I can act as much as I want..but its owez show the truth..~


Love is what? when a person being nice to us, then it love?? how about people dat stay far from us & we dunno anything bout their feeling toward us..is it fair for us to juz simply take a hasty decision based on infatuation at the time oni? How we put love into words, then we convince our heart that 'this is our true love?" then how are we gonna explain when he walkaway or you walkaway when he is no longer the king of ur heart? no one else to be blame..it is us who cause ourselves into a miserable situation..we who the one dat convince our heart..we allows them to be in our heart..we gives them all the opportunity to hurt us to deepest..


Love is love..beautiful but full wif torn..be careful & you will have ur happiness..I pray for everyone..may you happy wif ur love..accept it the way it is..always keep the 'beats' of first love..never lose it~ always cheerish it..may love conquer tis world..may love..finally send me 'there'...may everyone remains in my heart...

love...!

owez be yourself...

finally..hope it eternally~

beradu

sepanjang arini nih, dihabiskan ngan tido je..

xpenah aku rehat sebegini lama..

xboleh jadi nih..kne wat sumthing gak..

buat p la camne pon,

kalo nak sakit tetap sakit kn?

dah tido pon kepala masih sakit gler2 lagi..

boleh x makan pain killer? jadik cam abby?

ahahha..=)

dah sakit2 nih..mcm2 lak yang aku teringin nak makan..

chicken chop la..

sup kat restoran mamak la..

minum air serbat la..

nk makan laksa la..

tapi..

tekak ku sakit..

so makan ape pon xsedap la..

sejak kebelakangan nih, aku bergantung pada orang..

ape dah jadi ngn aku?

Am I changing?

I nver depend on people..i do things 4 my self & i did it alone..

am I confused of anything?

what have got into me?

I need to do immediate change..i can't continue like dis..

i noe  where this path will lead me..

& i'm not goin there..

yes, i've been dreamin'..

but i'm gonna stop this dream...

i've been forgetting sum1 this week..

what hv I done??

* crying

forgive me for my mistakes...

i noe..please dun turn ur back on me..

please..

dun walk away from me..

I oni have you...dat make me standing..

I can face anyone..I can fight anything..

but I can't do it if you're not with me...

please...

*holding my heart..crying..forgive me...~

demam + annoying~

knape susah sangat tuk jujur ngn diri sendiri..berat sangat ker? wondering..* kenapa aku harus sentiasa berdepan situasi camni..berdepan di situasi dimana aku je ditempat 'matang'..aku pun xtaw la..ape kah sebab aku terlalu berterus terang, orang keliling aku pkir mereka patut tuk menipu ku? begitu?? I dunno la..why can't you be a gentleman for once in your life? if it's not for me, a least be a gentleman for yourself..how long you think you gonna lies to yourself? is it becoz of man's ego @ bcoz you dun want to lose ur market?? I'm sick of it..i've been through this very situation many times already..if you can't be gentleman, you can't be with me..i dun need a lame & coward person to be with me...I'm sorry if one day, you'll realise that I'm no longer beside you..I need a man not a BOY..did I make it clear? If I'm serious than I'm expect people to be serious with me..so dun crack any lousy jokes with then make me irritated...!~
 sekali kepercayaan aku telah di'gadai'..agak susah tuk ku berpaling & senyum kembali..hanya Tuhan je mampu mengubah aty ku..aku dah banyak kali bagi peluang pada semua orang, tp penah ka peluang tu di hargai? so xsalah andainya aku amik pendekatan 'pentingkan diri'..if you think you are so damn important in my life, dude! you better think again..i might be with you today, but its not guarantee i'll be standing there again..so dun be so sure..i'm not bound to anything so im free to walkaway anytimes I want..no one can stop me..so think again b4 u make any stupid mistakes!


Arini boleh plak demam..alkisahnya, mule2 xrasa sgt nk demam..pas habis kelas Ms Eda tuh, trus keluar ngn Thipa & Priya tuk pergi ke canselori tuh..amik nombor..( makaih..nombor masa tuh 3045, nombor kat kami 3149) mmg lama la...so kami pergi makan kat FITM lu..masa tengah aku khusyuk nk buh nasi, ada la mamat sorang nih mai tegur..* pikir dlm otak ku, bila masa aku kenai mamat nih..siap kutuk mekap aku lagi..* how dare of you? hehhee...=P dialog dia lebih kurang camni..:
stranger : aii..cikgu ek?
ME  : ( buat muka konfius pastu angguk & terus ceduk nasi)
stranger : Wah tebal mekap cikgu..
ME  : nape? ( muka pelik) cni panas.buh tebal xpyah tempek2 lagi nanti..( dlm aty, pe ko sibuk2 sal mekap aku..ahahha...) tp still maintain sopan..
stranger : * looking at me..
ME : sibuk kan diri amik lauk..ko nk tengok, tengok la..aku nk MAKAN..itu penting taw x?
stranger  : wah banyak cikgu makan...
ME : ( wat muka pelik lagi sb aku baru buh ayam je pun) senyum sinis....=)
stranger : ok bye cikgu...
ME  : senyum....( watever...) huhuhu..

pas makan pergi canselori balik...start kat c2 la..kepala mula sakit..pastu lelangit ku terasa panas..* damn mesti nk demam nih..ternyata mulut ku masin...balik je kat bilik..mmg cam nk pengsan...tp xley nk ponteng kelas..sb kelas Mr Sadass..mgu last nih...nk mampus ponteng kelas..* damn!! aku dah nk habis la kat cni..alamak..boleh patah balik masa x?? xmo pergi praktikal..belum bersedia lagi nih...!!
masa dalam kelas Mr Sadass, kepala aku dah macam nk meletup...nasib baik slepas aku pujuk2 dia..dia lepas kami balik awal..so aku cepat2 trun & start keta...memecut terus balik..akhirnya! aku telan activefast pastu tarik selimut & tido..amik tido sampe kul 8.47pm..ehehhe...=P bangun p mandi..terasa lapar lak..siap2 la tuk p makan..

tO my MommY : ala..along demam la ibu...* motip: bermanja...hehheehe
t0 mySelF : padan muka..dah kate jaga mandi..tu la..kan dah demam...padan muka...* evil laugh..